+ soak it in +

+ our pain is real +

He says, "I want a child to have a father it only hears about,
So it can take that absence and turn it into hate and then something beautiful.
And I will meet that child at the time of their death.
And we will fly through the universe.
I want a child that knows me only through the written word and the sounds I created.
And realize this world is a place of great darkness.
It makes me weep and want to die.
But it's all I want."

She says to him, "That is the most disturbing but honestly perfect thing I've ever heard.
But they won't understand because you will have been the only person to understand them."

He continued, "I want my child to experience a pain far beyond my heartache."

She said, "Why? The world is painful enough."

And he calmly went on, "Because I feel my heartache is now blossiming into beautiful things.
And I want my child to make the world the most beautiful place.
And spread their arms and soak in the sun as it supernovas."

She wimpered, "Stop it, you're making me cry.
I'm not allowed to say things I hold in my heart anymore -
I've banished them."

His voice held her and said, "Good.
I haven't.
So many people destroyed me piece by piece
And I love all of them for it
Because they made me alive
They made me feel
And I realize they did it to numb their own pain.
I'll take it all.
Nothing escapes."